aLL i wAnTeTh: SoMe tHiNgS

I've decided all I want, is to Serve people. I came to this realization two nights ago after talking to a friend who is/was going through a really really rough time right now. All I could think of was how much I really want to help them in SOME way or form. I do realize though, that this is almost a selfish desire….I love the way I feel when I help someone, or serve…which is normal, but is it bad for me to have a desire to have that feeling always? I dunno. I think this is why I want to become a doctor, or a physician, or a therapist in SOME way or form. I just want people's lives to be better because of something I did to help them. It's a selfish, but good desire, I just need to figure out a way to do it….I know there are a billion places I could volunteer at, and I really should look into those. It's just a matter of doing it.

I want to go on a service "mission" thing or something…an opportunity to serve people again. My aunt recently gave me the number to a girl she wanted to set me up with. I made a date with her, but then had to cancel it because I was deathly…ok not really…but I was sick. Now, she's in Honduras doing medical stuff….I WANT TO DO THAT!!! Man I wish I were smart, like my brother Brent. 15 years old, and got a freaking 32…THIRTY TWO on the ACT, withOUT studying!! GEEEEEEEEEZE!!! But in all honesty, I'm quite proud of the fellow. Good job Brent.

I need to get better at going to school. Enough said.

How can I get the guts up to actually just walk up to a girl, or anyone for that matter, and just talk to them? This has always been an extreme mystery to me. I have never met a person that can actually walk up to someone, and just blatantly start talking to them. I mean it doesn't even have to be about meeting someone of the opposite sex, just being able to make friends I guess? My roommate and I were discussing this today, that it seems hard to make friends sometimes…especially of the same gender. You'd think it wouldn't be since that's all a youngin would do, or even kids in highschool. I dunno. It just baffles me.

I like my Lucky Jeans. I decided that tonight. That's all I wear now…I have 4 pair. But only wear two of them really. They are sweet.

I want a new guitar. Preferably a Martin, or an ovation. I just want a partner for Samantha Jordan. Yes that's my guitars name. She is my one true love, who always makes me happy and never angers me, or plays games, or gets frustrated at me. She knows me and I know her. She's great.

I love my family. I realized this when we went to Dinner for my Dad's Bday. He turned 50. Holy crap…I'll be half his age this year….that's nuts…what's more, I'll be a quarter century old. Yikes. Happy Birthday Father Dearest! We just have fun together…Camille is dating Brandon, he's a good kid, and I really think and actually hope it works out. They just are a good couple, and would be happy together. Austin will be going on a mission soon. His papers are in, so he should have his call here pretty soon…which is absolutely insane, and I've already mentioned the genius Brent Above. And Tiki is as loveable as ever. I love my Mom and the talk we had a few nights ago in the car. She is such a good Mother and I Loveth her.

I like Rockband 2. It's pretty much amazing. Especially playing with our new roommate Reagan, who is better than I am, but still it rocks. Actually, he bought an xBox 360 tonight. So now we have all 3 of the next gen systems…PS3, Xbox360, and the WII. I also just finished playing Zelda, Ocarina of Time tonight. I love that game, one of the best ever made.

I loveth my friends. Friends are great. I like having them, and talking to them, and hate losing them. I can really only think of 2 people I've ever really lost as friends. Actually 3 now. It's a sad thing to lose a friend. I don't like letting go, even when I need to or should have let them go ages ago. Girlfriends are nice too J

I need to get back on track. I'm lost in a lot of ways and there are things I need to be doing to do better at life. So I will start doing them. This very night. I want to go to the DogParkInn, so a friend of mine and I have made a deal to do things better and then we're going to go. I wanna go!!! I WILL go.

School is good. I'm actually enjoying learning math, something I never thought possible. I just like being able to understand it and see why it matters…(actually sometimes I really don't think it matters at all, but I'm sure it will one day) I mean, I actually ENJOY going to math Lecture...even though I've missed a couple times already, it's just relaxing. I do my math homework when I get bored…yeah, its bad. All my other classes are ok too. ASL is fun, but sometimes just long and tedious. My online class is…..Easy. Speech Anatomy is so interesting, but hard. It's almost discouraging….but I'll get through it.

I like adding Eth to the end of words. It's a new thing I Doeth. See, like that. And like my Blog title.

Life is good right now. Today I decided life is good. I really have absolutely no complaints. My job is secure (although I wonder how I'm still sane), School is going well actually…better than I thinketh sometimes…and I'm just not worried about the small things. Meaning…dating J

I misseth my Grandma Mabey. I just miss hearing how she is doing. I know she is watching over me and is with me when I need someone. She is Special Special.

I loveth Music. I want to write music and be amazing at it. I Love OPEN C. It's so epic and incredible!!

I love my Savior. Even in the times when I am down and hurting, which has been for quite some time it seems, he is always there to comfort me. I want to be more like him. I like the primary song "I'm trying to be like Jesus." I wish I could be a little kid again and sing that song and feel the spirit.

I love kids. I can't wait to have my own some day. Michelle and LJ recently had their first kid, in fact this past Saturday. I can't wait to see him. Lj was a good roommate, and is still a good friend. I misseth him, and Michelle being around too.

I love life. Life is good.

2 Timothy 2:3 Thou, therefore endure hardness, as a good soldier of Jesus Christ