This, That, and some more

I am at work again. What a suprise. Today....yeah i didn't do anything really at all. I couldn't sleep last night, because i was tossing and turning for some reason. And i had a dream that our house got robbed, like picked clean, and i woke up sweating and like breathing hard....so then i couldn't go back to sleep. So i slept in today and didnt' go to school...big suprise huh? But i cleaned the kitchen up and did the dishes sine it is my dish day. I bought the movie The Thin Red Line a while ago at Wal-Mart for like $5, and i hadn't watched it yet. I started it at 2:00 then i looked at the back cover and saw that the movie is like 3 hours long. I was like...good thing i work at 5. For any who haven't seen it...i'd recommend it if you want to know what it's really like in war, other than that it wasn't terribly amazing. But i like Drama's. I've discovered this recently. I think i like a good drama movie more than anything.
I've decided to just basically....give up on Chem for now. Well not really, i'm still going to class this last week and i'll take the final, but regardless of what i get on the test, i'm just going to retake it. I don't understand it at all and i don't know why. NEVER before in my life have i had something come to me as hard as Chemistry has. I just don't get it. Hopefully retaking it immediatley after taking it the first time, i'll be able to grasp the concepts more and i'm more dedicated since i know what i'll be getting into.
Over the weekend it snowed a ton. I was supposed to go see a movie for free on Saturday morning, but like EVERYONE was busy. PLUS the movie started at 9:30. In the end, i decided just to sleep in and not go. It wasn't worth it. Plus with the snow, and everything elseo going on, i was better off. We got a Christmas Tree on Saturday. Funny thing was, no one brought cash.....Good thing Cami was there. We Love Cami :) Well this is all for now. I can't wait to get off work, get home and get in the hot tub! I NEED IT!!!

Holy Chem-i_freaking_stry Sucks!

You Know. I know you do, because we all do. It's been a year since i've posted anything, AND on top of that, i've only EVER posted ONE thing. I'm not going to take the time to go through my life in the past year, since really nothing has changed. I still live in P-town with the same guys, but we live in a house now. Mike Bready moved in, so that's cool. I do have a major now in my BYU Schooling experience....since i really am getting schooled....my major is PDBio (Physiology and Developmental Biology for those of the not knowing lingo type)...which basically consists of the study of the human body....which by the way is A--MAZING. The only thing that sucks, and you should be able to tell from the title, is the fact i have to take a BUTT load, yeah a WHOLE BUTT load of Chemistry to do it.

Well at the moment i think i'm pretty much giving up on Chemistry. I've never failed a class in my life, but i'm pretty sure i'm going to fail it. I've fail THREE out of THREE tests....so i don't know how i will pass it...even if i do, IF...that's a big if.....then i'm not going to have an adequate understanding to advance on to the next one....in all honesty the question i'm asking is this. IS chemistry REALLY that important to anything. Sure it's nice to know how many moles of this when disolved in that make an immensly small amount of a new this...but I DON'T CARE. I just want to be a doctor, or surgeon...something of value to society. I'm sick of my dead end job. It's not really Dead end, but it pretty much is...in that i've tried to advance here and it hasn't worked...EVER...so how am i supposed to advance in anything if i'm failing in everything?

Life just doens't work like that. I dont' understand it. If anyoen can answer to me why life is such a pain sometimes then please, DO tell...i'd really like to know. I know it wasn't a bed of roses for the savior, and i know that following him really is my ONLY option at this point...but AGAIN how can i get out of this RUT that i am stuck it...so deep in seems in doing all the wrong things. Maybe not ALL the wrong things, but probably a good portion of them...of course i know that just making up my mind to change and be better is where it all starts, bu in all honesty how can i change without changing....that may not make sense, but it does in my mind.

Well i think this is enough ranting for now. I'm going to be writing everyday...or as much as i can. I need this...i feel better after this short venting session. Thank you Internet :)