The Job

Did i really expect to get the job this time? Well i thought i had a pretty good chance, but i wasn't getting my hopes up. Although, i still thought i had a pretty good chance. Nope. Didn't get it. I swear my manager hates me and tells anyone that wants to hire me NOT to do it, wouldn't surprise me at all. This is the standard email i got from HR (that i've seen countless times now):

Dear Jeff,

Thank you for interviewing for the Information Coordinator position here at Nu Skin. We appreciated the chance to get to know you better throughout the interview process.

We were fortunate to consider many talented applicants for this position. Although your skills and experience are impressive, we have elected to appoint another candidate whose qualifications more closely matched the requirements for this position.

We are truly pleased that you have considered furthering your career with us here at Nu Skin and wish you the best. Please let me know if there is anything I can do to help you along your journey, I am happy to help.

I know they have to send the same standard email to everyone, but for just once i'd like to get a personalized email from the person hiring me, telling me why i wasn't hired. I hate having to ask for it and then get a letter saying i'm crap (which is what happened last time). And what does "IMPRESSIVE" skills and experience mean? Seriously...if i'm impressive, HIRE ME!! I've been threatening to quit for ages now, and i'm pretty sure this is the last straw. You can only take phone calls for so long, and 3 years is just about enough for me. I'd love to stay with Nuskin, but it seems to be impossible without staying in my current position.

So if anyone knows of any good jobs, that isn't taking phone calls, and pays around 10-11 an hour, that'd be great.

Hum Dee Dummmm

So today. Today was a fabulous day. I don't really know why. Nothing amazing happened. What can i say? I guess it was just a good day. It might have to do with me turning in my Astronomy stuff and the teacher wasn't the wiser that i haven't been to his class in the past like 3 weeks...i mean HONESTLY. If the class lecture, ALL that was said is on the Internet and you can just read it...instead of listen to the teacher read it off the power point...is there REALLY any other purpose of going to class? I believe not!! Some classes, for example Chemistry....which will most likely be the death of me...you need to go to class because even though the power points are on the Internet, it's pretty much impossible to understand them if you don't know what they are about or how to interpret them. So that's my feelings on that. Kelly, my wonderful cousin, was in Provo today, and took me out to lunch to Los Hermanos. It was nice to hang out with her. Good times.
So vent time. Work. Work is fine i suppose, but you know it's really starting to get on my nerves with how tight they are trying to make things. When you try to hold a small child down, usually they struggle more. Anything you try to hold down, it seems they just get worse. I know there has to be limitations, but for real I'm sick of them treating us like babies. It really irritates me that they get mad at us for not knowing EVERYTHING and especially when we don't always get all the info they say we are supposed to. It's ridiculous. I don't' understand it. I know i work for a stellar company...we had our company x-mas party last night. It was awesome...good entertainment, portable DVD player, 2 week pay bonus...etc. it's great! it really is! The thing is, one reason why they treat call center people so well sometimes....well I'm pretty sure it's because they know how bad our job sucks. I HATE up selling..i really do, and i do it because i know i need to. If anyone is going to tell me that up selling helps a distributor, you know i just can't believe that. I know for a fact a lot of people really do get suckered into buying our products. The products are good....this is true...but really expensive and most people that are buying just what they need DO NOT WANT something else they CAN'T afford. I love my job. I really do. I just wish we would have more credit than once a year!
Next semester I'm working 7-12 (noon) and going to school in the afternoon. We'll see how that goes.
All for now.

This, That, and some more

I am at work again. What a suprise. Today....yeah i didn't do anything really at all. I couldn't sleep last night, because i was tossing and turning for some reason. And i had a dream that our house got robbed, like picked clean, and i woke up sweating and like breathing hard....so then i couldn't go back to sleep. So i slept in today and didnt' go to school...big suprise huh? But i cleaned the kitchen up and did the dishes sine it is my dish day. I bought the movie The Thin Red Line a while ago at Wal-Mart for like $5, and i hadn't watched it yet. I started it at 2:00 then i looked at the back cover and saw that the movie is like 3 hours long. I was like...good thing i work at 5. For any who haven't seen it...i'd recommend it if you want to know what it's really like in war, other than that it wasn't terribly amazing. But i like Drama's. I've discovered this recently. I think i like a good drama movie more than anything.
I've decided to just basically....give up on Chem for now. Well not really, i'm still going to class this last week and i'll take the final, but regardless of what i get on the test, i'm just going to retake it. I don't understand it at all and i don't know why. NEVER before in my life have i had something come to me as hard as Chemistry has. I just don't get it. Hopefully retaking it immediatley after taking it the first time, i'll be able to grasp the concepts more and i'm more dedicated since i know what i'll be getting into.
Over the weekend it snowed a ton. I was supposed to go see a movie for free on Saturday morning, but like EVERYONE was busy. PLUS the movie started at 9:30. In the end, i decided just to sleep in and not go. It wasn't worth it. Plus with the snow, and everything elseo going on, i was better off. We got a Christmas Tree on Saturday. Funny thing was, no one brought cash.....Good thing Cami was there. We Love Cami :) Well this is all for now. I can't wait to get off work, get home and get in the hot tub! I NEED IT!!!

Holy Chem-i_freaking_stry Sucks!

You Know. I know you do, because we all do. It's been a year since i've posted anything, AND on top of that, i've only EVER posted ONE thing. I'm not going to take the time to go through my life in the past year, since really nothing has changed. I still live in P-town with the same guys, but we live in a house now. Mike Bready moved in, so that's cool. I do have a major now in my BYU Schooling experience....since i really am getting schooled....my major is PDBio (Physiology and Developmental Biology for those of the not knowing lingo type)...which basically consists of the study of the human body....which by the way is A--MAZING. The only thing that sucks, and you should be able to tell from the title, is the fact i have to take a BUTT load, yeah a WHOLE BUTT load of Chemistry to do it.

Well at the moment i think i'm pretty much giving up on Chemistry. I've never failed a class in my life, but i'm pretty sure i'm going to fail it. I've fail THREE out of THREE tests....so i don't know how i will pass it...even if i do, IF...that's a big if.....then i'm not going to have an adequate understanding to advance on to the next one....in all honesty the question i'm asking is this. IS chemistry REALLY that important to anything. Sure it's nice to know how many moles of this when disolved in that make an immensly small amount of a new this...but I DON'T CARE. I just want to be a doctor, or surgeon...something of value to society. I'm sick of my dead end job. It's not really Dead end, but it pretty much is...in that i've tried to advance here and it hasn't worked...EVER...so how am i supposed to advance in anything if i'm failing in everything?

Life just doens't work like that. I dont' understand it. If anyoen can answer to me why life is such a pain sometimes then please, DO tell...i'd really like to know. I know it wasn't a bed of roses for the savior, and i know that following him really is my ONLY option at this point...but AGAIN how can i get out of this RUT that i am stuck it...so deep in seems in doing all the wrong things. Maybe not ALL the wrong things, but probably a good portion of them...of course i know that just making up my mind to change and be better is where it all starts, bu in all honesty how can i change without changing....that may not make sense, but it does in my mind.

Well i think this is enough ranting for now. I'm going to be writing everyday...or as much as i can. I need this...i feel better after this short venting session. Thank you Internet :)