I'll Have you Knowe (Like the English way....)

I was at Wal-Mart the other day, and noticed all the toy impossible-claw machines were titled

"Toy Shoppe"

First of all, shouldn't it be called Suck your money into a hole-waste of time-trying to impress a girl-impossible claw thing-Shop? Second......What? Where the CRAP did ShopPE come from? AREN'T WE IN AMERICA? Maybe i've been spelling it wrong as "Shop" all my life...anyway, hence the title.

So I know i haven't written anything for a REALLY long time, but i just wanted to inform all those....probably 3 people that read this....that i had my first banjo lesson today, from this guy....

Geoff Hohwald

Man, What a guy. First of all, what a sweet name. I think i was actually going to be a Geoff, but my Grandma feared i would hate it and convinced my parents to just go normal Jeffrey. Maybe i should change my name to Geoff? Opinions?

When i got my Banjo, I received with it an Instructional DVD and Book (The book is lost...) So since i didn't really have any other way to learn, i put it into my computer And Geoff taught me for a while. The Banjo is weird....So if anyone has any Pointers on playing the banjo, to make it feel easier or more comfortable let me know. I don't want to make it feel like the guitar, but any similarities would be awesome. I'm guessing there's not though. It's probably one of those things that takes getting used to. I tried to think of a good example, but it's late and i can't think. My brain is dead. Sorry this is all you get for now.

Ok i lied. I recently discovered a secret truth....i think alot of people know so it probably isn't much of a secret, but really Restaurants will make you whatever you want. It happened the other day at Wingers, and tonight at IHOP.....i'm going to start making up things i want and make servers make me special orders. (It's kind of like the exceptions thing at my own work. People think we have a rule and like the "System" or "computer" won't let us budge from that rule. But 99% of the time, it's just a rule and can be bent.) Because i'm the customer, and the customer is always right. Even though today at work I am 100% sure that the company was right and the customer was just completely insane and dumb and should never call us again.

I seriously WONDER how some people live so long in this life, not knowing how to live life and be good at it. Really. I'm not a pro, but i think i'm getting pretty good at it. I treat people right, I don't drive insane (ok only on occasion has Reagan had any reason to call me a utah driver...), I'm honest with people, i understand situations and what i'm doing in them, and if i don't, i don't act like an IDIOT trying to figure them out. Casual is what makes the world go round. All the people tied up in politics and debates, and unnecessary stressful situations, are wasting their time. Well that's my opinion...not sure where that came from. But it's true! Ok we are ALL children of the Same God, but sometimes i wonder if some of us were adopted from another God of Another Planet :)

PS. I Read today that Boozer is signing with the Jazz for this year. I really think they need to just get rid of him. Steve thinks he'll get traded, and i think that would be awesome. Then we can sign Millsap, he can develop more, and him and DWILL (if he actually stays with Utah) can dominate and destroy the Lakers. Ok it's a dream i know. Dreaming is good right?

PSS. My Rays are catching the Yankees. This is good news and makes me happy.

A Sunday Evening Post

Basically I'm bored. That's what it comes down to. Ok, it's also a new Month and i see the last post i made was exactly a month ago today. So i guess a substantial amount of things have happened since then, so i believe an update is due.

Update: Nothing new has happened. There done....now what...

It's been over a month since things with Camille ended. We still talk every now and then, i still miss her when the small things come up, but I'm learning to move on. I never knew break ups could be so hard. But i am grateful for the things i have learned from everything i've experienced over the past month. I've learned a lot about myself, and what i want (at least in the dating/relationship field), and where i need to be.

Living in a highly dense and saturated mormon city, it feels like the pressure to get married and be the perfect family is always surrounding me. But honestly, i don't let it affect me. I know I am in control of my life currently, and I have the means to do what i need to, and to progress (even though i feel like it's been a year since any progression has happened), and do better in departments where I am lacking. Ok this is making no sense. Basically what it comes down to, I am gaining an ability to blow off pressure and people telling me to do something I'm not ready to do. I want to figure my life out for me and for what i want, not what other people think is best for me. I have felt a strong sense of "depression" over the last few months, or maybe even the past year, but I think it's time to get out of that. I don't know how i'm going to get out of that, bu it's going to happen. I am feeling good about a new major, a new direction, and I just want to start fresh on something new.

I am going to abandon Spanish and PDBio altogether, and go with a new direction. In my student development class, we recently went over our Strong Interest Inventory tests. Alot of people speculate how accurate these tests are, however, I feel that if the person answered the questions without thinking about it or answering it how they "wanted" to answer, it's pretty accurate at telling you what you are interested in and where you'd do the best. My top "Theme" is Artistic. I LOVE the arts. Paintings, Art History, Music, Guitar, Anything that has to do with self expression, sincerely fascinate me. However, I know it's not something I would necessarily enjoy doing for a lifetime career. The test told me what I am most interested in, is working the medical field. This i already knew. It also told me I wouldn't necessarily do the best there either. It did however give me some fields i would probably do really well at. One such field I have considered before, and heard mentioned about how amazing it is, and have thought about looking into. Speech Pathology. I don't really know everything that it entails, but i know it's a pretty big field and a needed career as well. A classmate who is in that field, told me about what he knows so far from it. It sounds pretty interesting, and i plan on going to see a counselor tomorrow to talk about it and see the options. I'm pretty excited actually. I'm actualyl excited for something related to school, which makes me happy. It's a first.

As far as school goes now.....I'm not sure where i stand or what to do with my current situation. I have a Spanish test coming up on Wednesday. I haven't been to that class since the last time we had a test....which is very very very bad. I'm not sure what i'm going to do. I just found out last night that i missed a D&C test. I emailed my teacher begging for Mercy, but i'm not sure to what avail since i miss that class farely alot as well. All i know is this: Starting tomorrow November 3rd, 2008, I will miss no more classes if at all possible. I know i have to go to do well, and i want to do well. I really do. I just gotta do it.

A good friend told me once, "Action precedes Motivation." And boy is that true. I just have to figure out how to have motivation to take action to have motivation to do the thing i haven't been doing. It's like a circle or chain. One thing leads to another....

Last night i went and saw Maple Grove play. Mallory Davis is the keyboard player, and has been a good friend of mine for quite a while now. They are pretty awesome.

The Rays made it to the World Series, only to lose 4 games to 1. How dissapointing. How come the team i cheer for can't ever actualyl WIN the championship? Sucks bad. Even BYU isn't doing that well anymore. They BARELY beat CSU...they should have annihalted them. Hopeully the Jazz can do it this year, if anyone deserves it or needs it, they do. GO JAZZ!!

I am good. I think. I think i need to tell myself i am good, and i will be good. Thanks to everyone who keeps in touch with me and cares enough about me to worry about what i'm going through. I've just been going through a semi weird, kind of rough, hard, and confusing time in my life recently. I'm sorry if i've been bugged or annoyed or snippy. I'm just trying to figure my life out, and there are many people that are great and so supportive. I wouldn't make it without you. Thanks.